For the longest time, I was afraid of what people would think of me if I told them the things going on in my life that are not picture perfect. Like, my 3-year-old saying dang it to everything or my 6-year-old being hard headed and not listening, even after the third time he’s been told to do something. But even more than that, I leave out the part about me and how I react to the not-so-great behaviors my kids have developed from, lets face it, me.
I’m not proud of my behavior and the way I act toward situations. Truth be told, I’m ashamed to say it out loud in fear of other’s judgment. I think as women, we feel that we have to be the “Proverbs 31 woman”. You know, the kind that has to dye the fabric and sew the dress for the every day ball. We are all guilty of putting on a front with people when our life is a mess behind close doors. But God uses our imperfections, too.
Recently, I was meeting with some ladies and they shared a little about their lives behind closed doors. By them doing so, it allowed me to open up about my life and how I act towards my family. Why is it that we are so sweet to others but we are short tempered with our own family? God has been convicting me about this for a while now and I have been pretending I just didn’t hear him. But that day, I felt a big slap-in-the-face wake-up call.
God is showing me more and more how my attitude is affecting my kids. I still fail on a daily bases but I wake up every day with the goal of defeating this hurdle I have built up. God always gives me the patience and grace I need to face the little challenges I encounter with my kids. I just have to take it up and use it.
I love that our God is so loving and caring to teach us, each day, how we can be better than the day before. What a wonderful gift that is!
Hebrews 10:23-25 (NIV) 23 Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. 24 And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, 25 not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.